Confessions

Zack and Kate turn 1 here in a couple of weeks and I have had so many thoughts going through my head about this last year. Inparticular confessions of this first time mom. I think motherhood has to be one of the most unnatural things I have ever done. I guess I thought it would come so naturally and that my babies would just tell me how to mother them. This could not be farther from the truth. The first three months of there lives was so bad that I still feel sad when I look back, for them and for us. I had no clue what I was doing. I was TOO tired to do anything but what we were doing even though I knew it wasn't working.

I think I have a whole new appreciation for people who have systems in place that aren't working and they know it but they do it anyway. because. because it is something. anything.

Confession #1 I hate newborns. I didn't know that I did at the time but looking back. i do.

I feel both relieved and sad that I not only feel that way but that I have just admitted to it.

goodnight

Really Zack

This week Zack pooped during nap time, it leaked out of his diaper and then he played in it until it was time to get up. Honestly.

I have no more words.

Who will make it to mom first?

little fish

and who needs a pool when you have a laundry basket

hello sunshine

Team Work

brown eyed girl - blue eyed boy

Who needs toys when you are a twin

hello old friends

Here is a glimpse of why I have not been updating my blog...
note to self I have twins.